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On the Quondam Company and Latter Disappearance of Sir Dog of the Dire
« on: January 28, 2014, 05:26:49 AM »
I just had to get fancy with the title.  It's a result of reading the names of these old astrophysics manuscripts (I.E. Sir Isaac Newton's Philosophiæ Naturalis Principia Mathematica ("Mathematical Principles of Natural Philosophy") A.K.A. "Principia").

So, as some of you may or may not have noticed, and may or may not care about: for a long while I was a constant/regular visage to be witnessed on the server.  And then, probably around the end of November towards the beginning of December, my presence was less regular, with myself only hanging around for very brief periods of time.  And then not at all.

I just wanted you to know, my friends, that I'm not leaving or anything.  More along the lines of some stuff went down in my life (that I won't get into here, but I'm sure Asherah knows what I'm referring to), causing the mild depression I was occasionally dealing already to jump ahead to a constant thing.  Whereas I was -- maybe every other week, or at the very least a day out of the week -- down because of the reemergence of my injury, I have been finding myself more and more feeling like I'm trapped in a pit of despair, with my world crumbling to dust around me.  I just feel down almost constantly, sad some times, blank, discontent, not satisfied with life, et cetera.  There have even been days where I've felt like I'm in a dark place with no comfort to be found, no calm seas amidst a terrible storm.  My insomnia, not having bothered me in a long while, has recently reemerged (within the past two weeks).  I almost constantly feel alone, even when I'm among friends and family.  The past few days, I haven't even had an appetite and have had to make myself eat, albeit not regularly or properly.

I could go on all poetically and whatnot, but I will end it there.  I really wanted to say: I'm not gone.  I'm still here, just not as frequently as I once was, and that I'm going through some really hard and trying times.  Don't worry, I haven't turned to any vices, or sought out injury.  The worst I've done is binge-watched Youtube videos, and have recently turned to Animal Crossing: City Folk for some form of comfort or relaxation.

I love all of you, I love SoA itself.

Finally, I'm in an astrophysics class now.  Oh good gracious, great balls of fire.  So many vectors. SO. MANY. VECTORS.  (I'm also taking a class on Shakespeare and we're currently reading Richard III, so that may be lending to the poetic format of this post)

I end here with a funny picture:
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Re: On the Quondam Company and Latter Disappearance of Sir Dog of the Dire
« Reply #1 on: January 28, 2014, 06:31:14 AM »
If your injury allows you to stay in (some) school, get a degree (or two or preferably, three) and have a safe, secure, sane life in a respectable profession - it's a blessing. From what I knew of the situation, if you weren't depressed there would be something wrong. The depression will pass if you stay occupied (in things other than video games) and don't fixate on it and try to behave as normally as possible (eat at regular times, sleep at regular times, exercise, focus on the world around you right at the moment, and throw yourself 100% into your studies, etc.). Sounds too simple. In April you will have a positive experience very few humans ever get a chance to have. You're very lucky - for many reason. I know it's tough, but try to accept the changes graciously. Take care of yourself.
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Re: On the Quondam Company and Latter Disappearance of Sir Dog of the Dire
« Reply #2 on: January 28, 2014, 04:33:32 PM »
My injury has recovered to a point where it does not preclude me from what I wanted to do originally, it's just that it'll be a harder path to take from here, than the one I was on.  I'm still staying in school and seeking my degree, and I AM looking forward to the trip in May.

But thank you for the support, Ash.  It's much appreciated.  I haven't really found much support among my friends so far (see attached picture for the situation with that).  As for focusing on the world around me, I'm kinda trying to get around to talking to a girl in one of my classes. (Spoiler alert: she's cute.)



**RELEVANT PICTURE: https://www.dropbox.com/s/4dfgcs6ruf1t6yp/funny-depression-comic-smashed-hand_large.jpg
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